stumbled upon this video. i dare say that this will touch your heart. i cried watching it. i cried again just listening to it. sometimes, you just know, that when the words come from the heart, it will definitely reach another's heart. listening to her story, i felt this heavy feeling inside. jealous, happy, excited and sad. it's an intermingled feeling really. when you just wish, that you could feel like this. at all times. sadly, even in a day, we find it hard for us to really sit down and reflect. to say;
alhamdulillah, ya Allah. You let me think of you today.
alhamdulillah, ya Allah. You are still holding my hand today.
alhamdulillah, ya Allah. i am still a Muslim today. :')
we rarely thank Him for this huge nikmat that we have; that we are blessed with. nikmat iman. whom so many others are finding it hard to find. and yet so many who already have some, rarely wants to keep it. nikmat paling besar. yet we played around with it. doing things that eat away that little bit of iman inside us. making us forget.
back when i was in KMB, there used to be a saying (if i'm not mistaken) that i love to repeat to myself over and over. tentang Tali Allah.
we have an invisible rope, tying us to Him. He's Holding one end, and we are holding the other. jadi janganlah kita bermain tolak-tarik dengan tali Allah. because have we ever think of it; if one day He might just let it go? nauzubillah.
my advice is obvious; let us all try and grip that rope firmly. because in my humble analogy, once it all ends; with that Rope, He'll take us straight up to meet Him. angkat je kita naik. insyaAllah when that final Day comes. when feelings can't even be described. let's pray for it.
ps: and it's interesting really. that this is what Islam taught us about the concept of The Rope. and yet for many out there who don't know, their concept of the rope may be the total opposite from us; when at troubled times, all they want is a hug.. around the neck.. with the rope. nauzubillah.
وَٱعۡتَصِمُواْ بِحَبۡلِ ٱللَّهِ جَمِيعً۬ا وَلَا تَفَرَّقُواْۚ وَٱذۡكُرُواْ نِعۡمَتَ ٱللَّهِ عَلَيۡكُمۡ إِذۡ كُنتُمۡ أَعۡدَآءً۬ فَأَلَّفَ بَيۡنَ قُلُوبِكُمۡ فَأَصۡبَحۡتُم بِنِعۡمَتِهِۦۤ إِخۡوَٲنً۬ا وَكُنتُمۡ عَلَىٰ شَفَا حُفۡرَةٍ۬ مِّنَ ٱلنَّارِ فَأَنقَذَكُم مِّنۡہَاۗ كَذَٲلِكَ يُبَيِّنُ ٱللَّهُ لَكُمۡ ءَايَـٰتِهِۦ لَعَلَّكُمۡ تَہۡتَدُونَ
Dan berpeganglah kamu semuanya kepada tali [agama] Allah,
dan janganlah kamu bercerai berai, dan ingatlah akan ni’mat Allah kepadamu ketika kamu dahulu [masa Jahiliyah] bermusuh musuhan, maka Allah mempersatukan hatimu, lalu menjadilah kamu karena ni’mat Allah orang-orang yang bersaudara; dan kamu telah berada di tepi jurang neraka, lalu Allah menyelamatkan kamu daripadanya. Demikianlah Allah menerangkan ayat-ayat-Nya kepadamu, agar kamu mendapat petunjuk.
alhamdulillah ya Allah.
it's never enough. :')
praying that i'll grip harder.