the RCSI girls must've been annoyed with my constant mantra these few days. i've said it so many times, with different dialects, different tone of voice, different acts; :P
at the back of my mind, i was wondering if uttering these kinds of words meant that something is amiss? mungkin hubungan dengan Dia 'ter'jauh cuti-cuti ni? because we all know it; that if one remembers Him, we will never feel those kinds of feelings; sad, alone, etc.
but come to think of it, just maybe, 'jiwa kosong' is not that bad after all, as it can also be the marker of a new beginning. because that jiwa kosong, will definitely needs a filling.
phase 'jiwa kosong' will be faced by many, specifically those who are like me, a weak hamba Allah whose iman is always going up and down. don't ever assume that 'jiwa kosong' is just felt by those neglected youths, or those addicts, or those people who have strayed too far; those people who seemingly are leading a good life in the human eyes, are also feeling the same thing.
but it is normal.
to feel that way. because once we realize that emptiness inside of us, we will seek for some answers here and there. we will seek for some changes here and there. answers and changes, with the hope that they can fill that empty void of ours.
but it's also a phase where mistakes are made. many out there, mereka rasa 'jiwa kosong' itu, but ended up distracting it rather than fulfilling it. distracting oneself from the void; by having fun, hanging out with friends, laughing at lame jokes, looking for some adrenaline rush, involving oneself in some chenta monyet, looking for that temporary flattering-compliments-crushes love; but distraction will always be just a distraction. it's always temporary. we will forget about that 'jiwa kosong' of ours, but with time, we'd feel it again. unless we understand what we really need, this cycle will just repeat itself over and over and over again.
what we all have to realize is that 'jiwa kosong' itu has to be filled with things related to Him. it may be similar things that i mentioned as 'temporary distractions', but if the niat (read: intention) is right, then insyaAllah it may work wonders in filling that emptiness.
contoh? we may go out with friends, but instead of wanting to have fun and have some laugh, we aim at reminding one another of Allah in that brief meeting. seeking advices ke, sharing-sharing ke etc. if we decided to watch a movie; we shouldn't watch stupid shows that leave us smiling outside but having loud cengkerik noises inside (read: otak tak fikir apa-apa); instead we watch movies that make us think of Him; closer to Him. doesn't necessarily mean it has to be an islamic movie, even watching 3 Idiots can help us reflect, if we watch it with the right intentions. how about that L word? yes, looking for cinta is okay too, if it is to seek tranquility in His Redha.
and there are a whole bunch of things we can do really, and they all can help treat our 'jiwa kosong'; as long as they abide to these simple rules;
1. they adhere to Allah's rules
2. with the right niat (read: intentions)
i've been feeling tired too lately. that Jiwa Kosong phase. no pointing fingers though. i know there is something missing inside. and i am praying hard that Allah will fill it in, pada waktu yang terbaik, dengan cara yang paling baik. ameen ameen ya Rabb.
i love You.
how many times have we said these 3 words today?
do we have one for Our Creator?
rasanya tak salah pun kan.
and im sure He is always saying I love you too. :')
"Dan apabila hamba-hamba-Ku bertanya kepadamu tentang Aku, maka [jawablah], bahwasanya Aku adalah dekat. Aku mengabulkan permohonan orang yang berdo’a apabila ia memohon kepada-Ku, maka hendaklah mereka itu memenuhi [segala perintah] Ku dan hendaklah mereka beriman kepada-Ku, agar mereka selalu berada dalam kebenaran."
*one of my faves*
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sedang berdoa, semoga Allah Mendengar :)