i was waiting for a friend in the middle of the city yesterday. just beside the Spire. right smack in the middle. thus, i had a wonderful overview of a sea of people. i watch. i see. i think. *hadoihh*
i see people with shopping bags.
Prada. Gucci. Dolce + Gabbana. LV.
Iphone in one hand. Ipad in the other.
Land Rovers, Jaguars, Mercedez passed by the busy road.
"ramai rupanya manusia kaya nih." i thought to myself.
and today, i had my usual whatsapp chat with my little bestie (you know who you are, makcik). and i told her i was scared of seeing those huge cars, those branded things, those cool gadgets. and she goes to explain to me all the relevant things that what we see is not what we think. that not everybody wants to show off the things they buy etc. i agree to all her points. but i was still worried. because i actually am not worried of how others dealt with their wealth, i was worried of my own. (not that i have any..)
i remembered i once met a 'Datin' back in Belgium. a very nice motherly lady, but all she talks about was the places she went to, and all the things that she bought. and fairly enough, as we stepped outside the shop, we were welcomed with about 20 shopping bags outside, with her son waiting. i pray that her heart was not as influenced with the branded things, as much as her spoken words were.
when i see people with these things;
huge cars. huge homes.
branded bags and accessories.
i wondered how do they cope?
because sadly, i dont think i can.
pakai baju cantik sikit, lepas tu ada orang puji pun, dah kalut kena istighfar. =.=" so how can i handle things that will definitely capture the eyes of the society that we are living in? because deny it as much as we can, but we do live in a world where contentment (albeit temporary) comes with the branded things that we buy; we live in a world where the things we wear, are what people stare at. *istighfar*. and most importantly, i don't think i'm able to do it either; to walk, with a 1000euro bag on my shoulder, past a frailed-looking women on the sidewalk, trying to sell vegetables just to have some food on the table for lunch. :(
to seek wealth, is fitrah.
to have wealth, is ujian.
because having Wealth with a Healthy heart is, apparently, not easy.
so if we will ever be given that ujian later on in life, let us pray that our Hearts are healthy enough to handle those Wealth. insyaAllah. and if you are already facing them, still pray that Allah Keep those hearts of yours healthy. :)
and here's one of Dad's constant words of wisdom;
"Zuhud doesn't mean not having anything.
It just means your heart is not affected with anything that you have."
thank you Abah. i'll keep that in mind. :)
إِنَّمَآ أَمۡوَٲلُكُمۡ وَأَوۡلَـٰدُكُمۡ فِتۡنَةٌ۬ۚ وَٱللَّهُ عِندَهُ ۥۤ أَجۡرٌ عَظِيمٌ۬
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