my first day

i've read somewhere that sometimes we tend to 'open up' too much to the world; like telling every single thing that happened to us to the world; which somehow lessen the sweetness of telling them to the rightful one, Allah S.W.T. but wallahua'lam, i'm hoping that i'm not exposing too much of my life stories just for others to have a peek in my life, insyaAllah, it's nowhere near my intention. but i just hope that these simple stories that i shared which i believe are faced by many others out there,will be seen just like how i see them. and most importantly the fact remains that im hoping that while doing so, im doing my part in amar makruf nahi munkar. insyaAllah. :) ok. justifying mode off.

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i have a big news. but i'll keep it till the end.*wink*

it's been a very long day today. tiring i might add. i guess the few practices of fasting during syaaban didnt quite prepare me for today. ;).

but, some experiences stayed the same. like mama waking me up for qiam. and while you're pushing away the comforter you'd be amazed at yourself sometimes. the clock shows it's way early than your normal wake-up hour. but yet, everybody seems wide awake. the house is well-lit and everyone is at their own spot. mama is in her room. abah is downstairs in the living room. me and kakak (oh.kakak willl be home for the whole ramadhan. cuti bersalin has started!yeay!) shared the study room though. whilst abang ammar is in their room and lin is in our room. these are truly rahmat from Allah. for He is the one who really Woke us up kan? Alhamdulillah.

then it was the sahur. which would always have everybody looking at the watch every so often. and still ended up pretty much late cuz we all kept forgetting to take things that we need to. mainly vitamins and ubat and stuff. like abah and mama have their supplements. i have my share of medicine to take as someone who's  well-known for her immuno-deficiency. and then during the last minute, everybody suddenly would be gulping down a full glass of clear water to avoid unwanted dehydration during the day.

and today, when we were in the kitchen preparing for bukak puasa, i have the usual symptoms again. whenever i stand too long in the kitchen (and my 'long' is only 5 minutes), normally when im cutting something up, or kacau2 kuah atas stove, which requires me to stay still. my vision will get cloudier and and cloudier, and i'll feel very heavy-headed and i need to sit down asap. thankfully mama and everybody else know this too well by now. medically it's due to hypotension (low blood pressure) but i dont know why whenever i asked a doctor they said that im normal, despite all these symptoms. i normally have this, but it's worse when im fasting, and it happens everyday, during ramadhan. once, i did try to fight it off , i kept on standing  despite the blurred vision , and i ended up blacking out. ceh! nevertheless, i miss these moments. and going through them again, shows that it's another ramadhan for me, and i'm very much thankful. 

but the best part of my first day this year, the big news; is that insyaAllah, by this time tomorrow we will have another addition to the family this Ramadhan! it's weird in a way. me mama kakak and abe ammar went to the hospital for a normal check up. the due date will be in 2 weeks. but wallahua'lam, the doctor said that tomorrow will be it, insyaAllah.

kakak and me had been having 'conversations' with the baby, somewhat i have been selfishly asking the baby to come out faster so that i could spend more time with him/her. hehe. i was hoping it would be next week, and we didn't expect the doctor to say "tomorrow" at all. 

im thoroughly excited but scared at the same time. praying kakak will be strong tomorrow, that everybody will be strong tomorrow, and more than anything, praying that Allah is Watching over all the time. insyaAllah.

so basically i've been too excited to tell this, hoping that anyone who reads this will pray for my sister and her baby's safety insyaAllah. 

till then. i dont know when i'll be able to write next. hopefully soon!

ps: it's a truly great Ramadhan. alhamdulillah :')

yours truly,

soon to be Aunty-Chik!