in the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful. :)
a few things had struck me a little this week and i thought of sharing them in here. muhasabah diri insyaAllah. *btw, after so long i just realized muhasabah has the word hisab in it. and this week, a sister taught me a quote from Umar r.a:
"Hisablah (evaluasilah) diri kalian sebelum kalian dihisab, dan berhiaslah (bersiaplah) kalian untuk hari aradh akbar (yaumul hisab). Dan bahwasanya hisab itu akan menjadi ringan pada hari kiamat bagi orang yang menghisab (evaluasi) dirinya di dunia."
first off. Alhamdulillah. we should rejoice along with our brothers and sisters in Egypt, for the stepping down of Hosni Mubarak. seeing a youtube clip of the Egyptians' response after the 30-seconds announcement of the resignation, does overwhelms me. im not one who understands much about this, so i wont talk in details about it; but i know enough that it's the best thing to happen. i know enough that a change is taking place, insyaAllah. a change that we all Muslims are hoping for. a change that might be another sign for all the signs that had already taken place. a part of me is very happy, excited, if things happened accordingly. but another part of me is also very scared, because if things does happened like we all wanted them to be, then will i be one of the losers, who never put an effort in what is taking place? wallahua'lam. whatever it is, i pray that Allah is with them, with us, every step of the way. Guiding us all back to Him. ameen :)
read a lot of things about the issue here and there. SaifulIslam had written about it simply, tapi berkesan. so do read. ^^,
on another note, i have missed out on a lot of the writings from my favourite writers. one of them is ustaz pahrol definitely. and checking out his latest link: Bercerita tentang jodoh, left me all hopeful and angau. lol. but in a good way i guess. will work harder on being a better person. that's really what we should be doing right? *sigh. still so many things to achieve*
anyway, he mentioned about beauty in his post. and that led me to a trail of thoughts. leading to: the Wave. lately, i do find myself a little bit 'off', reading blogs of people from home mainly; showing pretty little dresses, skirts and scarfs and what-not. with all the unique styles of wearing them. not to mention the never-ending youtube videos teaching you how to wear selendang and stuff. being one of those with the double X chromosomes, of course i got all excited looking at them. "cantiknye..cutenye.." well you can imagine. with all the Hana Tajima wave spreading all around, a part of me was amazed, wow, so many people are wearing headscarf. alhamdulillah.
then i bumped into the blogs. one after the other. but watching them, i gradually was taken aback.
apa niat kita?
when i put on my clothes, when im wearing my selendang, what are they all for? just to look pretty in the mirror? just to attract others? just for all of that? most of the time, the clothes are just fine. menutup aurat, nice, modest. but the way we all talk and ramble about it, the way we took our pictures, the way we post them in our blogs or facebook or whatever, the way we make the videos, the way we accentuate every single details about fashion; as if the clothes that we are wearing, the colours that we are matching, the accessories that we are donning, where we buy them, matters more than pleasing Allah s.w.t.
astaghfirullah. i am definitely, 1000%, completely not the best person to talk about this. because i am one who forgets too. but this is me mainly reminding myself, and sharing it with others out there.
lets go back to Him.
what i love most about being in Dublin, (anywhere where Muslims are not the majority) is that everyday, we have a chance of representing our Deen a.k.a da'wah. at least when we wear something nice and modest, and caught the eyes of the non-believers; it will lead to them questioning, why are they wearing those? who are they? etc. ugh. im saying all this with a very heavy heart, because even i truly dont know whether my actions speak louder than my words. nauzubillah. if they dont, then i pray to Allah to guide me and change me. :(
but if we all manage to do this, betulkan niat whenever we start off our day, wouldn't it be great? through our clothings, we show them Islam. through our clothings, we show them modesty. not just towards the non-believers, but all the other sisters too. right?
because i think, there is no such thing as muslimah fashionista in this world. (that's what they are calling it nowadays). because if we truly understand the things that make one a muslimah, then we would know that the two words cant come together...well, at least i think they dont.
"eleh. jeles ar tu die pakai tak lawa." oh..sampai hati. T,T
"dah i have a passion for fashion, i cakap la pasal fashion." fine dear.
"lain kali jangan masuk blog tu in the first place" tertekan je..T,T
heheh. bersangka buruk amalan mr Merah.
and thus, again, to readers out there, (like me) who might have been one who were unconsciously dragged along in this 'muslimah fashionista' wave that is spreading around us, do remember that this is just me in my muhasabah mode. i am not perfect, the things i said may even be the things i do wrong, *most of the time :'(* but reminders are meant to be shared.
and forgiveness is what i shall seek, not from you, but from Him and only Him. and i think we all should. wallahua'lam.
leave the kids with the fashion. *wink*