mind rant #16: bebelan minda

Sing a Song

i know how some friends hate it when a blog has a background song in it. some girls came up to me saying that when they visit my blog, they'd mute their speakers first, then continued reading. but what can i do? i like listening to songs that i love when i'm in here. :) it's been a while since i have one playing in the background. the last one didn't work cause the original website was closed. but after googling some tips and tricks, i managed to learn how to embed one in the blog again. heh. so bear with me will ya? if you can't then you always have the 'mute' option. *wink*

anyhow.

this song caught me the first time when i heard it in the background of a show i watched. i heard only the first line of the song, and i quickly googled it. :) yup. that's how fast i fall in love with songs really. and my search was a worthy one as the lyrics was so nice that i wanted to share it in here.

some say that life, you can't rewind

even when time is on your side.

some say that pain, it makes you strong

and you find the strength to carry on.

some say that tears are meant to fall

what good is crying after all

there are mistakes you cant undo

then they bring out the best in you.

nice isn't it? :) 

note to self to learn the chords and sing with abah this summer. hehe (sempat lagi)  :)

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Hidup kita Sama

sometimes we feel that our lives are so much different if compared to the lives of others. but at the end of the day, we all ended up learning the same thing. contohnya the value of sabar. doctors learn it from the patients they see. office workers learn it from the scrutiny they get from the evil lady-bosses. mothers learn it from the tantrums their children threw. politicians learn it from the false stories (fitnah) being spread about them. while those in wars learn it from the deaths they've to see.

in the end Allah teaches us all the same thing everyday. planting the value of sabar into our hearts; albeit the different experiences (and the different level, of course). and one can only marvel at all the other values that Allah plants in our hearts everyday, with or without us realizing it. and they are all meant to bring us back to Him. so look harder, think deeper, and be thankful for the lives that we are leading. cause it all stems from the same root, and is growing towards the same direction; 

from Allah, and towards Allah. 

enough of rambling for tonight.

selamat malam.

:)

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Little Boolats

umar and airaa
Aunty Chik pengsan.


okbai.
T__T

Paradox

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمنِ الرَّحِيمِ

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just another day in the B&B, decided to rest my head for a while and scroll the facebook newsfeed.

"hate the sin, help the person."

-AbdulBary Yahya-

i attended his talk in Dublin once. my short term memory can't really remember exactly when was it. Since then i've been following his facebook page. and Syeikh Abdul Bary Yahya's awesome quotes would always fill the newsfeed. and i do what i do best too. Like. or Share. today i chose Like.

i scrolled down some more.

and found a video entitled:

"Peragut Kena Tibai Depan Klinik Ibnu Sinar Kemaman."

Paradox.

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what would have been the best thing to do?

what if he was not beaten up and shouted at in front of the crowd?

what if the one yang diragut shielded him from the angry crowd, and forgave him?

what would he say if someone was to talk to him one-to-one?

would he be just another junkie, not having enough money to buy more crap? 

or would there be more to the story? has he a sick mom at home?

has he not been to school all his life, so he does not have any jobs and is desperate for some food?

has he a sick child at home? has he no home?

all these endless possibilities. 

hate the sin.

everybody manages to do that. we all can. at that moment, at that time. everybody came together to hate this sinful thing this man had done.

help the person.

something that nobody would think of. at that moment, at that time. maybe we all wouldn't too when we are caught up in that kind of situation. wallahua'lam.

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hate the sin, help the person.

i guess it's a mantra that's easier said than done.

but it wouldn't hurt to remind ourselves of it every so often.

with the hope that when our moment comes,

it wouldn't be just another mantra.

insyaAllah.

*nota kaki*

hati tengah sakit. sakit yang amat.

mohon doa dari sesiapa pun.

jazakumullahu khairan. :')

Tentang Mr E

no, it's not about Mr Emran, Mr Edi, or Mr Erwansyah.

it's all about Mr Ego.

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thanks to Google, i've picked one definition of Ego, in which it's defined as an inflated feeling of pride in your superiority to others. and though many agree that ego is  important as a booster of self-confidence especially in times of need, i think that Ego is somewhat not welcomed in our Deen.

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we often hear the saying; 

"If you've got it, flaunt it."

and we, more often than we thought, do this flaunting thing rather awesomely. =,=''

pretty girls flaunt their pretty faces.

boys flaunt their 10hours-at-the-gym abs.

brainies flaunt their intelligence with their straight As and best answers.

those who write well flaunt their fluency with complicated words that only Thesaurus knows.

those who speak well flaunt their awesomeness in debates, public speeches and so on.

and wealthy people basically flaunt their wealth. 

don't get me wrong, having all these things is not a sin; you can have wealth, the awesome ability to write or to speak, the pretty faces, the brains and even the brawn; the only thing wrong here is when we flaunt it. sometimes we may do it rather obviously, and other times, we'd do it discreetly. and the scariest part of all, is when our hearts do all the flaunting. because when we thought that everyone else doesn't see it, there's always One who sees it. huhu~

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so why is it wrong? 

simply said, everything we have in this world, are not ours.

so how can we flaunt them?

how can we feel proud  of having them?

how can we feel this superiority of owning them?

when all of it comes from Allah's Rahmat and Allah's Blessings?

but we forget.

and that has always been the real underlying cause.

and the only key to kill Mr Ego is to be reminded. sometimes by the people around us. and if we're lucky enough Allah will remind us through ujian, dugaan dan cabaran that He has perfectly prepared for us. insyaAllah.

and so here's a reminder to self and everyone out there,

"if you've got it, don't flaunt it.

say Alhamdulillah."

إِذَا مَسَّ ٱلۡإِنسَـٰنَ ضُرٌّ۬ دَعَانَا ثُمَّ إِذَا خَوَّلۡنَـٰهُ نِعۡمَةً۬ مِّنَّا قَالَ إِنَّمَآ أُوتِيتُهُ ۥ عَلَىٰ عِلۡمِۭ‌ۚ 

بَلۡ هِىَ فِتۡنَةٌ۬ وَلَـٰكِنَّ أَكۡثَرَهُمۡ لَا يَعۡلَمُونَ

Maka apabila manusia ditimpa bahaya ia menyeru Kami, 

kemudian apabila Kami berikan kepadanya ni’mat dari Kami ia berkata: 

"Sesungguhnya aku diberi ni’mat itu hanyalah karena kepintaranku". 

Sebenarnya itu adalah ujian, tetapi kebanyakan mereka itu tidak mengetahui.

Hoy Kawan!

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمنِ الرَّحِيمِ

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we had our combined usrah with fellow Imdadullah again last week. and by the end of it, a typical topic was chosen for the tazkirah, one that we hear every so often on a day-to-day basis: Ukhwah. funny to think that a few years back, i was once those who have never heard of the word, let alone understand it. and for that, let's say Alhamdulillah. 

so a few things came to mind upon listening to the tazkirah (reminders) by Cik Sharifah Acha *kofkof*. :)

the need to be reminded

as i've said before, whenever we've become too accustomed to something, we'd always have the tendency to lose our understanding of it in the first place. and only rarely would we sit down and think deeply and carefully for the words that we utter daily; 

apa itu ukhwah?

rasa tak ukhwah?

kenapa berukhwah?

dengan siapa kita berukhwah?

those things that brings the sweetness out of ukhwah is often forgotten. and only when we are reminded of it again, that we finally think a little deeper to fully appreciate all those ukhwah we have built with the people around us. and most importantly, to say Alhamdulillah for the chances we have to built them.

Ukhwah atau Friendship?

not to worry people, not knowing what ukhwah is doesn't mean that all those relationships or friendships we have are all for nothing. ukhwah means persaudaraan kerana Allah. and saying that means whatever you do in that relationship, you do it for Allah, because of Allah. and how do we do it? well, by doing anything that Allah loves really. it can be as simple as carving a sweet smile on your face, or as huge as being with them on their way to say their first syahadah! and all those other things like: reminding each other not to be lagho, to recite Quran, to do good deeds, avoiding bad ones and the list goes on. (and yes, listing them is far off easier than actually doing them. =_='')

so truthfully, many of us have actually built ukhwah without even realizing it. yeay! :)

Distortion

and sadly, there will always be some people who somewhat manipulate what ukhwah is just because they don't understand it wholly. one type who says that ukhwah is specific to certain groups of people: geng stok masjid, stok pakai tudung labuh, stok tabligh, stok usrah, stok budak overseas yang tiba-tiba balik pakai tutup aurat, stok ustaz ustazah etc.

and another type who actually feels that ukhwah is exclusively for them; "huh selagi depa tak masuk bulatan gembira, tak pergi konferens riang, tak baca mathurat, jangan gatai nak guna perkataan ukhwah depan cheq na~~~". in which i think these kind of things happened mostly due to misconceptions because we haven't really truly understand what ukhwah is in the first place. 

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and so from my humble understanding, ukhwah is just relationships made on the basis of pleasing Allah, that makes everyone in it closer to Allah, by doing whatever that He Loves. and the more we understand what it is, insyaAllah the deeper the ukhwah will be. and let us all pray that it would be one of the many ways that will lead us to Jannah insyaAllah. :)

oleh itu,

hoy Kawan!

yosh kita berUkhwah!

“Sesiapa yang Allah ingin kurniakan kebaikan kepadanya 

nescaya Allah mengurniakan kepadanya seorang teman setia yang soleh, 

jika sekiranya dia terlupa (lalai) dia menolong memberi peringatan 

dan apabila (temannya itu) memperingatkannya ia akan menolongnya”.

[hadith]

وَأَلَّفَ بَيۡنَ قُلُوبِہِمۡ‌ۚ لَوۡ أَنفَقۡتَ مَا فِى ٱلۡأَرۡضِ جَمِيعً۬ا مَّآ أَلَّفۡتَ بَيۡنَ قُلُوبِهِمۡ

 وَلَـٰڪِنَّ ٱللَّهَ أَلَّفَ بَيۡنَہُمۡ‌ۚ إِنَّهُ ۥ عَزِيزٌ حَكِيمٌ۬

“Dan Dialah yang menyatukan di antara hati mereka (yang beriman). 

Kalaulah engkau belanjakan segala (harta benda) yang ada di bumi, 

nescaya engkau tidak dapat juga menyatu padukan di antara hati-hati mereka, 

akan tetapi Allah telah menyatupadukan di antara (hati) mereka. 

Sesungguhnya Ia Maha Kuasa lagi Maha Bijaksana”

[8:63]

mind rant #15: Hakikat

sedih. hearing a friend who lost his mother.

jealous. with the Akh who left the world but not the hearts.

happy. listening to voices of loved ones.

nervous. big finals are coming soon.

pelik. reading about politics back home.

pening. reading about humans, lives and the world.

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and frustration.

upon looking down into my own heart.

kosongkah?

keraskah?

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what am i doing right now?

what are you doing right now?

what are we all doing right now?

hakikatnya,

it's only a Borrowed Life.

hakikatnya,

kita semua perlukan Allah.

hakikatnya,
carilah Allah.

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AllahuAllah.

astaghfirullah.

''Apabila hambaKu bertanya tentang Aku 

katakan (wahai Muhammad) 

bahawa Aku dekat 

dan Aku menyampaikan doa orang yang meminta kepada Ku.''

[2:186]

:')

i miss writing.

bad decisions. 

we all need to make them. 

that's the only way we learn.

i wish i could write. but good writings comes from dada yang lapang. apparently mine is a little bit messy these days. mohon doa, from anyone who's still sweet enough to drop by into this hidey hole. :)

Assalamualaikum.

Dearest Umar

My first nephew was born today.

Umar Khalif bin Afnan.

16 Feb 2013

I was not around when he came beautifully into our lives. but i'm sure Kak Ita had underwent the most exhilarating experience of her life when she gave birth to Umar. When i received the text from Abe that evening, in the middle of Harry Fear's talk, telling that Kak Ita was now in the hospital; all i could do was pray that Allah will keep both Kak Ita and baby Umar safe till the very end. Alhamdulillah, Allah did just that. :')

when Abe texted our family's whatsapp group, i was the only one who read it since it was in the middle of the night back in Malaysia, and it was 7 p.m for me. reading it, i knew for a fact how scared and excited he was. listening to him all those time since Summer and the Winter holidays, i knew how much both Abe and Kak Ita were so excited with baby-bump-Umar in their lives. Abe and Kak Ita had their own cute way of expressing it. Baby Umar would kick Kak Ita's tummy so much when he was in there, and Abe would put a box on the tummy, just to see it fall off when Umar kick it from inside. Adorable. Very adorable. :)

And today Alhamdulillah,

Umar is out to greet his parents with Allah's Will.

i can only imagine the huge eyes and the very slow movements babies make.

it's adorable in every angle that you just ended up staring at them in the creepiest way.

heheh. and i talk from experience okay.

and as much as i wish i'm there just like i was there during Airaa's first few days, *click*

i guess i'm just gonna have to wait patiently for Summer.

and when i'm back home i'm gonna be the crazy old Aunty Chik again,

kissing Airaa, Umar and insyaAllah another cutie pie; to my heart's content!

mwahahaha (evil laugh)

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فَبِأَىِّ ءَالَآءِ رَبِّكُمَا تُكَذِّبَانِ

Maka nikmat Tuhanmu yang manakah yang kamu dustakan?

[Ar-Rahman]

Thank You ya Rabb,

for shining yet another light into our lives.

And thank You is never enough, with these kinds of blessings that Allah gave us.

the only way to prove that we are thankful enough

is to be more dutiful in carrying out our responsibilities as His Hamba,

insyaAllah.

and to you dearest baby Umar,

i pray that you will grow up to be a handsome soleh muslim.

and knowing  that you will grow up with;

a very warm-hearted daddy and a beautiful sweet mummy by your side;

i know that you'll be able to be just that;

mukmin yang soleh.

Aamiin.

Aamiin.

ya Rabb al-A'lamin.

yours truly;

Aunty Chik 

ps: too much love to give away. saya pening lalat.

Airaa and Umar i love youuuu T____T

pps: Dad's text this morning:
"Kak Ita selamat lahirkan baby boy at 1p.m. Abe got teary."

comel. :')

Love you much Abe and Kak Ita and baby Umar!

and never forgetting my first Boolat, Airaa!