the Sad Ones

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Sesungguhnya orang-orang yang beriman itu hanyalah orang-orang yang percaya (beriman) kepada Allah dan Rasul-Nya, kemudian mereka tidak ragu-ragu dan mereka berjuang (berjihad) dengan harta dan jiwa mereka pada jalan Allah. mereka Itulah orang-orang yang benar. 

[49:15]

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when we read the news of all the chaotic things that are happening around the world, brothers and sisters in Syria, in Palestine, and in Egypt; the real jihad that's taking place; we'd always ended up having this surreal feeling. we'd be brought back to the ironies of the lives that we're having. most of us are still in the hari raya mood, some are having their wedding bliss in the Syawal month, some are still fighting with useless words on small stupid sentiments; and yet we're seeing bombs and shootings in the news; bodies and blood splattered everywhere.

but no matter how trashy we feel while reading all those news, no matter how much we realize the ironies that they are there living for the al-Haq, and we are here living amongst the Batil, we still have to carry on living these ironic lives. 

we still eat our cereal breakfast.

we still go to our workplace in the morning.

we still study for the upcoming exams we'll have.

we still sit, laugh, and make those jokes with our friends.

it's surreal. it feels wrong. 

but it's the life that Allah has chosen for them, as well as for us. 

it takes a while even for me to grasp this conclusion, that living our own lives 'normally' is not wrong, while our brothers and sisters are there with their jihad. it's not wrong to live this 'normal' life, if our thoughts and prayers and actions are with them along the way. but our lives will be surreal and it will be wrong; if we keep doing the sins we do, if we keep feigning ignorance for everything that's taking place; and not just those turmoils, but the ignorance of keeping ad-Deen in our lives, among our families, friends and the society.

but then again, come to think of it, even if our thoughts or prayers or actions are not with them, they have nothing to lose. because they have Allah with them, watching over them. and how can they not, when they spent their nights and days with zikr to Allah, when they step out of their house every single day with Syahid in their minds?

they cried among the dead but they're not the sad ones.

it's us. we're the sad ones;

who watches from afar, with just a 'normal' life to live.

Are we spending our day and night with zikr to Allah?

Do we step out of our house everyday expecting Death to invite us?

Are we offering our harta dan jiwa?

astaghfirullah. for all our sins.

astaghfirullah. for being forgetful.

astaghfirullah. kita memang menzalimi diri sendiri. 

teguran untuk diri. first and foremost. :(

may Allah Forgives.

أَحَسِبَ ٱلنَّاسُ أَن يُتۡرَكُوٓاْ أَن يَقُولُوٓاْ ءَامَنَّا وَهُمۡ لَا يُفۡتَنُونَ

وَلَقَدۡ فَتَنَّا ٱلَّذِينَ مِن قَبۡلِهِمۡ‌ۖ فَلَيَعۡلَمَنَّ ٱللَّهُ ٱلَّذِينَ صَدَقُواْ وَلَيَعۡلَمَنَّ ٱلۡكَـٰذِبِينَ 

Apakah manusia dibiarkan begitu saja mengatakan “kami telah beriman” sedang mereka tidak diuji lagi ? Dan sesungguhnya kami telah menguji orang-orang sebelum mereka, maka sesungguhnya Allah mengetahui orang-orang yang benar dan orang orang yang berdusta [dalam pengakuan imannya itu] 

[29:2-3]